Somebody Pray For Me!

July 10, 2015

For the past four hours or so I have been frustrated beyond words over my computer.  Yesterday I uploaded an "update" that wound up taking away my access from my main laptop.  Long story short, it's working now and I am ready to write!

Last night, it wasn't so bad because I was tired anyways and had my Chromebook to check up on the latest news and things.  However, this incident took place yesterday that buzzed around in the back of my mind and I wasn't sure how to deal with it.  This morning, when I checked my phone for Facebook updates, there was a response to the message and BAM!  As I prepared Steve's breakfast I knew what I was to do.  My friend had thanked me for my comments and asked me to continue to pray for her. Oh ho ho:  be careful what you ask for, my friend.  You just might get it!

So, as I prepared my thoughts and was quasi-praying about how to word them, what should happen but my computer act up?  Hmn hmn hmn.  I wondered:  am I not supposed to be writing this blog or is the devil not wanting it published?  What a quandary!  Does this ever happen to you:  you think you know what you need to do and yet the "spiritual forces in high places" are in conflict so that you become unsure and hesitant if the action needs to take place at all?  Some would call this "coincidence" but as a child of God, I don't believe in this word.  Everything happens for a reason so when it seems there is opposition, it may be in fact just God's way of telling one to calm down and be careful.  Yet, it could also mean to not do it and therein lies the dilemma.

As I pondered this in the back of my head (the part that wasn't exploding at the madness of modern technology doing its thing), I pulled the plug.  No internet, no tv, no telephone.  I read a couple of chapters of a book and ate my lunch.  Then I said a quick prayer for assistance and voila`!  God put me back in action!  Funny how the simplest connections are just between Him and me.  

Now, on to the point of my blog today--other than the simple fact of when all else fails, pull the plug and simplify!  My friend wanted me to pray for her.  I was in the position of praying since I was unable to be distracted from anything else but her and yet...and yet my prayers were on selfish me.  "I" need my computer fixed.  "I" need my internet and phone to work.  "I" need...blah blah blah.  And then, when the Lord fixed it?  Guess who barely uttered a "thanks" and began to jump back into the chaos of blog writing?  Yep, the gal sitting on the other side of the screen.  The one with the shamed face and the humbled attitude.  My mission this morning was to pray and blog about the kind of prayers I would be saying for my friend and instead my mission turned into a time of self-reflection that has left me being the one most needing of prayers.  How can I think I am in any position to pray for another and tell God what she needs when my attitude in times like this is such a poor one?  Oh my cow.

So, in conclusion, as we pray here in just a moment, I want to be selfish again and lift me up to our Lord.  I want you to pray that I will be a doer of His Word and not just a hearer.  I want you to pray that I won't be such a hypocrite, always ready to straighten out others when I am the one who is twisted.  Will you do that for me?  You don't have to click "like" or respond with a comment--although words of encouragement are always welcomed!  But if you will, for just a few seconds, ask God to have mercy on my soul and make me more like Jesus.  Thanks in advance!  

Ready?  Let's pray for ol' Stef now!

Dear Lord, I know You can read my mind and hear these words:  "It's me; it's me O Lord, standing in the need of prayer."  Sigh.  How dare I have the audacity, Father, to think I can come to You on behalf of another when my own mind is dirty and my intents not honorable?  Oh Lord:  how do You put up with me??

Father, I have my thoughts and opinions on how others should act, behave, and represent You.  But when I look at myself through their eyes, I am shamed as I see how selfish I am.  The time I spent trying to fix the computer this morning could have had my thoughts and prayers going up to You on my friend's issues but instead I was blinded by my own needs.  And Lord, You know when she asked me to pray for her, she fully expected that I would.  

As the old song says:

1. Search me, O God, and know my heart today,
   Try me, O Savior, know my thoughts, I pray;
   See if there be some wicked way in me;
   Cleanse me from every sin, and set me free.

1. Lord, take my life, and make it wholly Thine;
   Fill my poor heart with Thy great love divine;
   Take all my will, my passion, self and pride;
   I now surrender, Lord, in me abide.

Please do, Father, take my self and pride especially and cleanse me with Your love.  I surrender to You, God. Have Your will in my life, I pray, and mold me into the image of Jesus.  In His name I pray these things--and apologize for my wayward behavior--amen.